On mental illness, and why its not "quirky"

I'm going to be vulnerable, I've been diagnosed with so many mental problems. Bipolar, Anxiety, Depression, ADHD, and Autism. I've tried to commit suicide over 5 times, starting at nine years old. But I've gotten help for all of those things, even went into the mental hospital a few times now. My life with mental illness hasn't been easy, and I know there are people with even worse problems out there, and it helps to have support from family and friends. Many people turn to social media platforms for support and to bring awareness to others about mental illness. However, unfortunately, there are people who exploit this, and fake a mental illness to get views, or because they think it's quirky, especially neurodivergence. Neurodivergence is defined as "differing in mental or neurological function from what is considered typical or normal (frequently used with reference to autistic spectrum disorders); not neurotypical." I've seen a rise in people self-diagnosing themselves, which doesn't mean they're faking it, but it is odd they aren't trying to get an official diagnosis. In my opinion, people who aren't willing to get an official diagnosis, except people who can't get medical help due to finances, are not willing to do so because they know that they actually aren't and will not get diagnosed. That's true in some cases, not all though, and it just seems like the reason to me. I know people who have been ableist, "the discrimination of and social prejudice against people with disabilities based on the belief that typical abilities are superior. At its heart, ableism is rooted in the assumption that disabled people require 'fixing' and defines people by their disability.", towards my autism diagnosis, specifically, and even my ADHD diagnosis too. This happens too often, unfortunately, in the autistic community, and in others as well. And I'm not going to mention any names, but someone I know very well was ableist towards both my ADHD and my Autism diagnosis, saying that I "needed to get over it" and " I'm more than my diagnosis" and then months later goes on social media and posts multiple long paragraphs about how they never got diagnosed but they suspect that they have autism and they have a "beautiful yet dark and different" brain, then paragraphs about never being diagnosed but suspects they have ADHD, over a span of a few weeks. This is a good example, that before they thought people with autism were less than they were and needed to get "over it", then when having autism was "trendy" they started to claim that they had it too, even without being diagnosed. I want all people to know that living with Autism and ADHD is not trendy or quirky, it is not fun at all to have both. It's really hard to focus on conversations with ADHD and with Autism it makes it that much harder to communicate with others and understand what people mean when they are talking. With ADHD I don't focus on social cues and with Autism I can't understand them. It's not fun, I can tell you that for free. It made me an outsider to my peers. I didn't have many friends growing up and still don't. It's so hard to talk to other people with autism, it took me years to get to the point where I could blog like this. The video I released the other day on Facebook wasn't easy to post and I almost didn't. I didn't talk at all in school, except to my friends whom I pushed away due to not understanding social cues that I was talking too much or being too clingy (I don't really know the reasons all my friends ended up ditching me, I just assume this much by watching videos and looking back.), And so many times people were like, "Wow she can talk" when I would say something, it made me not want to, and even harder to talk. So no, it's not quirky at all or trendy or fun or whatever, it's the opposite, hard not fun, and just makes me seem weird and different. So it irks me when people pretend. And as far as mental illness, living with mental illness is hard, too, pushing family away. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to gatekeep mental problems or anything, if you actually think you have mental illness and don't feel comfortable going to a medical professional, that's perfectly fine, and regardless of whether you do or don't, or what your intentions are, you don't owe me anything. I just think people who fake any illnesses of any kind, and/or ableists, are the worst. And in conclusion, it's not quirky to have mental problems, you're not any more special than anybody else by having problems of any kind, and neither am I for having the problems I do, that's my point. Sorry for the different format and topic of this blog, I just think this needs more awareness, actively faking illnesses of any type needs to stop!